My “silly” sister Lydia

How many times had my beloved father called Lydia silly? I cannot even begin to count, there were too many- but oh! I have never believed it true- not for a single moment! But now, it cannot really be explained in words how I feel. I am so confused about this matter. I want to believe Lydia was only acting on her own feeling, that she did it for love, but it is not something I cannot talk about lightly. I cannot help but want to believe my dear youngest sister does not… that she does not know what she is doing us. That her intentions were pure, and she does not know of the pain she has bestowed upon our family. My poor mother- so hurt and bewildered by this turn of events! She is so horribly ill though I must add that she is feeling better now. I surely hope this will all work out in the end.